I'm moving all the serious stuff off here... occasionally I might still update my life here... but no longer will I show myself here...
The real me is going to another site... if you seriously wanna know... then ask... though I doubt many would... search for it if you think you're capable of finding it...
haiz~ It didn't have to be this way... but you guys have betrayed my honesty and trust...
gd bye...
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
2:55 PM
I've been knocked up all over... Physically, mentally, spiritually.
Haiz~ won't you talk to me?
7:18 AM
First dream of 2008 and I really wanted to log this before leaving the house.
"I saw her and her brother at the arcade. I met them just before the racing machine. She was excited and all smiles. She eagerly said, "Hey! Look at my necklace and how it spins." She happily took off the heart shaped necklace she always wore. She seemed younger than I had remembered. She placed the ends of the necklace, made of interloping metal links, in one hand and her other gently supporting the heart shaped pendent in the middle. She showed how as you shorten the chainlink and then gently pulled it, the heart shaped pendent would then twirl around.
"see?" She squeaked in her cute, excited voice.
I missed it. truth be told. I gave her that incredulous, 'so-what' look. She scrunched up her lips and stuck out her tongue.
Taking the necklace into my own hands, I tried it for myself. And I saw it. Just the last half turn, where the pendent turned halfway. I told her I finally saw what fascinated her, my words falling on her back as she sat down at the racing arcade machine.
"I have to go" I reluctantly said. She signaled to her brother 'soccer?' and her brother nodded in reply.
I fumbled to get the two ends in my hands and then gently wrapped the necklace around her neck. I struggled for a while with the clasp before succeeding in securing the piece. As I tried to straighten up, the rather long, loose end of the clasp had caught unto my shirt pocket. We both chuckled at that as I dislodged the metal bit.
She turned and smiled good bye. The eyes that I would remember as yours, that credibly infectious smile. All I remember as I turned and walked out... "
Heh... It was a nice dream. Between my 700 alarm and my 705 alarm. I won't reveal the identity of the mystery girl but the clues as to who she is, is all inside the dream itself. All I can say is that its not who you think it is.
Perhaps it means something, perhaps nothing.
But it was a much better start to 2008.
"I have to go."
hidden messages???
1:57 AM
It is a new year. Though I rather not use the word happy.
One year ago, at watchnight I sat in the pews. Watching a story unfold. I still have that picture from then.
One year on, and I've become a participant. Not a position that I like though...
One year later what will happen? who knows?
And it was not a good way to start the new year either. I heard things that made me wonder if you lied to me, Told me things just to patronize me. I explained it away that you probably meant elsewise or that the person got the wrong message. I choose to believe in you. That you at the least, would be truthful.
But nevertheless, it has thrown another mild conflict into my mind. But all that's temporary. I know you. You wouldn't. I trust that...
The last day of 2007 has been one of those take forever to get by kind of day. I only pray that it doesn't happen so often in 2008... Laying in bed thinking of everything about you...
