I almost hesitated. But I didn't hesitate as much as I thought I would. Jenna, you're crazy! And I let you convince me to play that dancing game >_< But okay larh it was rather fun. I admit that much... And I got that D first!!! And your S was when I got A... not a big difference.

Guess more dancing for me...

Break free!!! Wahaha:P

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Chan will come back year end! woohoo! Electric power!!! wwweeeeaaaaannngggggggg..............
Justin! Hurry up and finish that thesis!!! hahaahz... See you soon dude!


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Back to school.... -_-" haiz... Oh well... let me finish this sem...







After Effects...

I have visited many many BKs this week. Eat till sianz liao... no more BK for the rest of the year I hope.

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I have decided I shall go and try. *deep breath* And lets go.

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Its fun preparing for worship. Loads of work and money involved but fun anywayz. I am glad to be able to serve in this area.

I can't wait to play drums also >_< Hahah. thinking of getting myself a drumstick bag. But no money. About 50 bucks. Then can keep my sticks and also bring around like a drum key or some other drums related gear. So erm... anybody out there?? *hint* *hint* Hahahz!!! Anybody nice enough?? :P:P:P

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More bk tomorrow and a worship prep to look-see.
Nitez!!




goal in sight...

I guess I must be thankful. I actually have to study BK for a presentation. I won't explain here but if your curiosity is getting to you, please feel free to ask me personally. So I shall spend 2 more days hanging around BK joints and try to understand the intricacies of their working structure.

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Impatience. Let me wait. When the time comes. Let me grab hold. When windows open.

Hopefully...

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I have a lessening desire to blog today... hahahz. Just running out of ideas.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow I shall be back again.






a shot in the dark....

It should have hit me harder. I should be reeling from the blow. Am I just tired or does it not matter to me? Or do I not believe that its possible either ways.

Now all I do is to see this out. Maybe it'll come good maybe it won't. God knows and soon so will I.

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Again with the games. bleahx >_< less less!!

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On impulse I went to watch evan almighty. Quite a funny show. *laughter*

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I prayer tonight for people!! Hahah. Glad I managed to commit the people in my life into His hands.

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happiness vs happiness...

Is there a mask? Hiding the truth of the matter.

Perhaps I did something foolish and I failed to do the thing I said I must. heh. Oh brillant me.

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Today has been like computer games day. Civilization IV and The Movies. Crazy fun. Letting Qin shi huang's tanks run rampant. Helping my stars befriend each other.

It's like so simple. The more they talk, the closer they get. Then just let them spend time in restaurants and such and their relationship grows. Life I guess is somewhat similar but more unpredictable. How do I know whether its helping or making it worse, I wish I knew.

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Thinking the sand is slipping through my fingers is kinda bleahx >_<

hahahz...

off to bed then...





going, going, gone...

Its been a pretty good weekend. :)

Sat was nice and slow. Could wake up late and then leave for powerhouse, ON TIME.
Then had a nice discussion after dinner with ben regarding ministry and vision.

Then sat night I almost forgot to meet God. But I pulled myself out of bed and tried. It was like walking into a wall though. I asked then that He would guide me or lead me in some way. I said I wanted to meet Him. And I did.

I slept at around 1. At 5.50 I woke up and couldn't sleep. So thats when I figured that God wanted to meet now! So I spent a good 20 minutes just committing to Him the plans and ideas, interceding and singing Spirit touch Your church.

Then I reach church and had a nice little morning with good friends. Then service was fun too!:) Fun and Meaningful. 2 words we don't mix but actually coexist just perfectly fine. I was greatly encouraged to have person to my left (*winkz*) having fun too. kinda lifts the weight off of one's shoulders'. Like as if not alone like that. Jumping Jenna. Hahahz. thought of leaving her identity secret but J(square) was a kooky idea that just came to me. Hello J2!!!!!!


So now I have one week's sem break. Must make sure I use it well.






trading...

eh... now I see my point...

I haven proven myself and did what I said...

hey... I should be better than this...

1-0.
I'm happy.
good enough for me.

Here I am at 3. Faked by the television programming that said it started at 1. Prematch started at 1, actual match started at 2.45!!! So here I am. Half time, 0-0. Seriously, I think I might be wasting my time. Come on Man utd!!! Wake up!

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Its on the tip of my tongue and its about all I can do to bite it and keep it from spilling it. So eager to tell it yet I must preserve its status as a secret. I know, do you know? Do you want to know?

Common sense is kinda hard to act upon. Its too easily swayed by feelings and thoughts. So my struggle to keep it in is present.

It will not work, so I keep it in. If it works then by all means I'll let it out. Rational, no?

Okay, I concede. I shall try my very best not to talk about it anyway. In the manner which I mean hinting like this yet not telling. Because its frustrating to read such entries. It kind of just leaves you hanging wandering whats it. then possibilities fly around your head and you just NEED to get it straight. But then I won't tell. So yeah, its kinda mean of me to not tell.

And I do! Trust me when I say that. But I cannot. For I know if I did all hell would break lose.

Then again maybe it won't. This world doesn't revolve around me. So I guess all hell would break lose in MY world. It would mess up a lot of good things in my life. Okay, maybe just that one thing. So in order to preserve it, I suffer the craziness of not telling.

Today I succeed. Tomorrow I try again...

Back to my match...





merry-go-round...

Where did it go?

I was very sure it was there a moment ago.

but now I've lost sight of it.

Where did it go?


Where did it go?

Do I still have it but can't see it.

Or is it in the hands of someone else.

Where did it go?


Where did it go?

Maybe I never really had it.

A great deception upon myself.

Where did it go?





midterms down...

My midterms are over... A simple affair. Just two quizes on my two simplest topics. Both my 101s.
Psychology and Sociology. I'm glad to be done but I realise I am a step closer to end of semester. I'm a little dazed now... Was sleeping and woke up.

back to sleep I guess~ see ya!

All that needs to be done is to walk a few steps down and say hi.

I pray that I do not perform out such forgetfulness and neglect.

All you need to do is say hi.

A few more sentence would be fantastic.

But just a hi would do.

But then 'those' fellows were there.

So it figures.

I hate ....l..






3's a crowd...

I feel like I'm kidding myself. Wait, rephrase. I am kidding myself.
Caught up in the great drama before me. Believing in something non-existant.

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Mid-terms. So fast and already it is my first semesters mid-terms. I can only pray and trust. I surely have not done my best. God be my strength.






alone at a bk at eastpoint with a chocolate fountain...

I got ahead of myself.

must come back now.

And start over.





run, run as fast as you can...

Stand up and move on...

perceived madness

madness

diminishing causation...

A smile worth fighting for...

must try harder

life is crazy...

and I still fall

I'm sorry...

I hope you know that...

It has been a weird weird day. Strange occurences and coincidences.
People sitting on my right and my tutor behind me. (Did I mention she's REAL cute? Haha!)
Then tutorial mates coming up to talk to me. Weird. Really.

Am tired >_< 103 assignment and readings kept me up for what seemed like an eternity...

So excited. :)





inspiration...

It started a little flat but sure picked up pace. It was nice to be praised for my work, though I found it rather balnd myself. Writing class is tremendously refreshing. Breaking it down really made it much easier to understand the mechanics of writing. Balanced pairs and cumulative sentences. I like this phrase, 'comma splices'. It sounds so cool!

I realise the semester is really zooming by and the end is creeping up on me. Soon, I will be half way through the semester already. So many things going on.

I have ymlc this weekend, and a crazy assignment as well due on monday. I wonder how I will complete it.

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The memories keep coming, as if it was just yesterday.

The hope keeps flowing, as if it'll be tomorrow.

I wish and hope.

Maybe it will happen
Maybe it will come to past.

I can't wait to see it unfold.





I have a secret...

I have a secret... Hahz! Secret was way good. Beautifully shot and wonderfully scripted, it tugs at the heart string as you see jay and rain search for each other. Its so sweet the way in which their relationship grows and proceeds. When the conflict comes, its a real heart ache.

The movie was real good and I take back all my preconceived notions. Of course, I had great company too and I'm quite sure she was moved to tears... am I rite?? hahahzz

Then went sakae! I love salmon. Too bad someone doesn't like raw stuff! hahahz... But we had mochi! and gelato too... then followed by like aimless wandering. I never had such meaningful, fun and purposeful aimless wandering.

I've rarely felt so comfortable for so long, in a non-church setting.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:):):):):):):):)
Spam!

THANKS SO MUCH!

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Meeting and brainstorming tomorrow! Ideas must flow now... flow flow flow!!!

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Why is it so hard for me to believe I can be good company?

Why do I doubt myself?

Must struggle, but is it true?





A secret which can't be told...

Oh me oh my, I have all these ideas.

Some cool, some new, some big, some small.

If I try, what will happen?

Failure? Thats not a bad thing. Sometimes you do fail and its fine.

Rejected? Perhaps this is worse. When ideas are halted from becoming reality.

Then what next? To pursue it of course! How else will I know? What do I have to lose but some time, a little bit of petrol and a packet of good coffee?

To go a little further than expected. To reach out a little more than before. To love a little, little more!!





Tomorrow is a secret....