I apologize to those who came by the last week and found nothing new. I was... occupied. My mind is a busy place.

I miss you. Haven't seen you for a few weeks and it feels like months. Its not depressing or sad. Just the moments you cross my mind it seems like the world could be slightly better if you were around. But I try not to entertain such thoughts in case I wander too near the line. Its a sweet dream best suited to the deep recesses of my consciousness.

Now I don't even know who I'm talking about...




lingering memories...

I apologize to those who came by the last week and found nothing new. I was... occupied. My mind is a busy place.

I miss you. Haven't seen you for a few weeks and it feels like months. Its not depressing or sad. Just the moments you cross my mind it seems like the world could be slightly better if you were around. But I try not to entertain such thoughts in case I wonder too near the line. Its a sweet dream best suited to the deep recesses of my consciousness.

Now I don't even know who I'm talking about...




lingering memories...

The wind blew gently in her hair, caressing her face. The evening sun was descending gracefully as its rays bathed the square in a comforting orange glow. The fountain stood in the center of the square marking a focal point of all the social activities going on.

"Where is he?" She wondered to herself as she glanced around the square again. She wished he would appear already but for the moment it will remain as a wish.

Thoughts of their brief moments together drifted lazily in and out of her consciousness. His smile. The way he looks when he's processing a hard bit or information. His passion for his music. She smiled to herself, betraying her emotions just for a little while.

Time couldn't seem to go any faster.
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Time couldn't be any faster.


It seemed like it took an eternity to get to the next traffic light. Every turn, road and crossing seemed to take longer and longer.

"Just a little more."

He stopped just a bend away to catch his breath, he didn't want to appear panting. He took a split moment to straighten out his shirt. Nothing to fancy, just a shirt and jeans.

"Here goes."

He turned the bend and he spotted her straight away.

Stunning. Literally. It was as if his mind paused to admire the sight before it. Simple, just a white dress down to the knees and a hair clip to keep her fringe to her right. Yet so lovely and... and... and stunning!

Everything bit of mental preparation washed down the drain as he stammered.

"Sorry to keep you waiting." He finally managed to say.
"Its okay. I didn't wait long." Her face broke out in a radiant smile. When she realised that she was looking straight into his eyes, she quickly turned away.
"I didn't mind. It was worth it." The last part she mumbled to no one in particular as shyness crept unto her face.

"Erm, this is for you." He held out the single stem rose. Cliche no doubt, but the meaning was more important.
She took it without a word and spun the rose around, looking at its crimson petals though her mind really was on the giver than the gift.

"Thanks."

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Disclaimer- The above mention has nothing to do with anybody. Any semblance is deeply regretted. This was a random idea caught in the alpha-fa ideas natural reserve. Its is for the sole purpose of entertaining and for matters of conservation.
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Her face was expressionless. I looked at her stare at her rose. No smile, no giggle, no longing in her eyes. Just nothing.

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People who don't celebrate v-day sometimes annoy me. People should! Its like why we celebrate birthdays, anniversaries, Easter and Christmas! People who don't celebrate it just because everyone else does or worse will laziness, is just... annoying!

It should be a special day to remember the special relationship. Its not right to say everyday can be V-day. Because its special! Everyday, a relationship should grow and have new and special moments. And on V-day should be a special day to remember and celebrate that relationship!

I detest the commercialization. But V-day itself shouldn't be disliked.

Celebrate it! Even though everyone else is doing it, don't let it stop you.

Its a special day!

enjoy!






Wonder how yours was...

It was nice to see you today.

not all too bad a day.

Help me through.

I wanna be that knight in white.

someday, perhaps.




wanna be a hero...

I stepped off the rumbling platform into familiar surroundings. I indulge in the moment of deja vu as the door closed behind and the bus slipped away. Memories rush me as I ascend the steps. Sweet memories. Bitter memories. Distant memories.

My purpose was different today. Unstructured creative construction of structured noise with chan and co. Its been a long time since I was here because of 'her'. The route was as similar as I remembered it to be. Nothing much had changed, yet it was vastly different. A refreshing gust hit me in the face, my shirt flapping in the wind.

"All I need is You, All I need is You Lord, is You Lord..." The song on my player changes. How appropriate I thought. Clouds shifted lazily in the sky, trees dancing to the rhythm of the wind.

Then my mind shifts. I wonder what "she" is doing now. I wonder what could happen the next I meet "her". Hope springs eternal but is mine but a foolish self-deception? This questions haunts my days, yet hope still abounds in the fields of my imagination.

"Your" voice echoes through my mind. "Your" encouragement and support still strengthens me. I still remember looking at "your" smile. At times I longed to make right the wrongs "you"experience. To bring a smile to "your" face. And regardless of how it may have came, still my heart is at peace when I know you are well.

I will forget the old 'you' and look forward to the new "you". What may be. Could be. Hopefully. May the blessed God keep both of you safe and bring happiness to you(s).

As for me, I can only hope in this silent moment that one day dreams will be reality.





All I need is You...

I have searched for it. I worked through the processes but still it evaded me. My mouth was dry but then I was trying to fill my stomach first. I searched through more possibilities in my mind. Where could it be?

People rustle by as their chatter is drowned out by chris. The rhythm echoed through the parts of my mind not already involved in the search.

Then it hits me like a rugby player. More like a full team. I reel from the initial blow, with barely enough time before it came again. Blow by blow. But I roll with it, using its momentum to go further on. Finally I found it. My search is nearly over.

I found the inspiration.




sparks of creativity...

I can't decide what I need to do! I don't know whether I should be happy or sad. I have many reasons to be sad and the only reason why I should be happy is that.... I should be.

Loneliness amplifies again. Sunday aft seems to have some finality about it.

Maybe thats why I fight so hard for cell.

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I see what others can have and wonder why I cannot reach there. Is it me? is it a question of effort? or have skill? or of fate?

On the brink of giving up.

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Talking to you is a joy. One that I relish much. But the chance is now past.





where's my white flag?