I knoe you're there!!! Out there in the world of windows and codes. Dear readers I know you are there! I would like you to leave a note behind. And I hope that by reading my life experience, as shallow as it might be sometimes, will provide some relief from your own hectic schedules. Maybe it'll help you realise you aren't alone. Or even if I'm just a source of joke for you :P Hope thru some way you're blessed too...

Lately I've been feeling a little unsettled. Maybe I'm mistaken so I shouldn't dwell on it. But I do everything. Everytime I see it, I can't help by turn again. But its never close... just somewhere beyond... Maybe I just don't fit, or maybe the circumstances aren't right. Tempting to wrestle control of it, show it and push it. But I won't, I must trust God for it. As much as I'm worried about what His response might be... I gotta trust it, I just got too... If not what else can I hang unto?

Sorry if I'm confusing you, I really can't share much more... otherwise I'll be falling into the trap of making it obvious... so pardon me :P

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So anyway after 67 episodes! FINALLY SHAORAN AND SAKURA! haHAa... still some way off but its finally making some headway...

Also I started watching tsubasa and I think its really nice
maybe I'll watch it all!



sa-ku-ra! shao-ran!

I am so infatuated with Sakura at the moment! hahaz... Pardon my indulgence but I really do like to indulge...

SA-KU-RA!!!!

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Would God use me? I fall short of what would be called perfect... or even just good... But of course I know God can and still chooses to use me... Its just... maybe... I don't think He should...

There has to be a criteria rite?but then again...

I trust in You my God. To fill up my weaknesses and to build up my strengths. Lord, I believe You see the good in me even if no one, not even myself, can see it. My maker, my Saviour and my hope! In You I trust, Jesus.




five loaves and two fishes...

Suddenly I find myself in the valley of emotional darkness. Maybe I'm just tired or I just really miss her. Perhaps you might say I'm not trying hard enough to forget. And then you might be right. But seriously I'll live through it. I'll live through the pain and sadness because there is not way that I can forget it.

Just tired larh~





For the memory of you~

Guess who turned in a MoM performance... Played out of position in a new role, puts a standard performance, a few good saves and drop kicks... Clarence!! A surprise but a good one:) Happy for you brother...

I wish I could say the same for myself... mistakes a plenty and played on the left again... I feel very uncomfortable on the left... I much prefer my natural right... Haiz~~ Not to mention that I have to train somewhere other than my hallway... its too narrow!


And here's a shout out to sound advice... I had a tremendous predicament today... So I was pleading God to guide me and I decided that I shall go thru the test of counsel and the test of time... And now I have chosen a path that I think is better, all thanks to my advice givers... Mostly it involves giving a gift to a few somebodies... well, if you're the person then you'l find out soon...


I am into the final third of Cardcaptor... and seriously Li should just tell her!! Tell sakura for crying out loud... I can't take it watching him stammer episode after episode...


A certain sense of boredom is coming over me... I also don't noe why...

considering coming out with a compilation of all the publicity videos I have made and make it available to YFers... hm... wondering...

For all those with exams, all the best and jia you!! May God bless your endeavours...



red face and thumping heart...

I had a very interesting dream this week... and I just typed it all out but my comp being my comp had to wipe it out! Now I'm too pissed and tired to re-type... so if you wanna noe wait a while maybe tomolo I'll try again.

Ever felt unappreciated? Somehow I wish I would see my name appear. But it never does... or at least rarely. See-ing everyone's name appear without yours just feel kinda demoralising. I feel.... neglected I guess... unappreciated maybe?

Or maybe I'm just really not good enough... as a friend anywayz...

But I shouldn't look to be thanked... its tough but then maybe I should learn to just be a friend without hoping to be remembered...

God give me grace to accept that...

I had a very interesting dream this week... and I just typed it all out but my comp being my comp had to wipe it out! Now I'm too pissed and tired to re-type... so if you wanna noe wait a while maybe tomolo I'll try again.

Ever felt unappreciated? Somehow I wish I would see my name appear. But it never does... or at least rarely. See-ing everyone's name appear without yours just feel kinda demoralising. I feel.... neglected I guess... unappreciated maybe?

Or maybe I'm just really not good enough... as a friend anywayz...

But I shouldn't look to be thanked... its tough but then maybe I should learn to just be a friend without hoping to be remembered...

God give me grace to accept that...

Wel.. its been a long two days and my eyes are heavy with sleep... But I guess its been worth it. I'm pleased with the outcome of the video though I thought audience response was a little low... But I trust that God has done what He intends to do. So I'll stop worry because all these is His anywayz.

publicty is not over yet though... some more videos are coming and I'm hoping I dunch have to burn anymore nights...

Haha... Can't think of much, my brain is like stalling.

Take care you all:) God speed!!




Most insolent and unbecoming...

Editors log--- As of this time as stated, the video is mostly complete, just left the sound editing portion. But I need to rest. mind is not as sharp anymore after so little sleep. In fact, its starting to hurt... But the video looks great and God deserves all the glory for that. So many things that were beyond everyone's control like the wind and the waves and yet God just timed it right.

Besides that, I've got my Go! card today.Quite happy though I am going to miss my old grey card. The new card looks nice and can do so much more.

I dunch feel like I can conjure up any more coherent sentences... post again after some rest

Yoz!!

How are all those out in the cyber world?? For those doing exams and school work and stuff... JIA YOU!! Press on! Mayb God bless your work and your mind! God speed!

For those in army, press on even more! 2 years may seem long( It is long!) but God has a purpose no matter where/when/who/how.

For those doing absolutely nothing ( Like I will be in 2 months time). Have fun! Enjoy the break and make the moments last:)

When I think of more to say I'll post again...

Whew... This has been quite a tech weekend for me. Been laying the foundations on my computer before I start the actual editing processes in hope that it'll be smoother then. I just saw the footage last night and I must say I'm pleased and excited!! So the coming week we'll see the whole thing then... hopefully it'll be aight!

didn't have much time for my own activities but I'm okay. Was nice to be out yest with clarence and cher hao. I missed my other friends too but then again it can't really be helped. No cell plus schoolwork = less time to spend... Haiz... I can only pray that God keep the bonds of friendship strong.

Glad the haze has lifted.

Want to watch more Sakura.

Need more finances too. hee =P

Take care!!=)




see-ing ya soon!

Its over! Phase 1 of production is done... though the next part is definitely the killer but at least there will be fewer people involved. It was a world of fun and of course hard work! We laughed, sweat and balanced an entire morning. God was gracious with good weather.

A shout out to the cast who were so professional that we had so little bloopers and I ended re-doing shots just to be on the safe side. To Jy who was really good at organizing the whole thing. To mel, for her help ( hope you're alright from the rolling and bobbing around)... hm... did I miss anyone out?? (apologize if I did)

It was really a lovely day, for many reasons. First time at a yacht club. On a yacht. great cast and crew. beautiful scenery.

By God's grace this publicity will be all that God has meant it to be.

Look out for the final product!!

few more hours till the cameras start rolling on the high seas. I'm definitely anxious. Keep running thru random segments just to make sure things will be alright... Might need somemore stuff... haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Off to bed after one more round of the script...

Card captor rox




Release!!