Guess what I have been into most recently? Watching CardCaptor Sakura!! So cute~~!! My friend lent me the whole series and I'm having a killa time watching now!!

I'm so hooked at the moment... hahahz...

Well... must leave for dinner with my dg now... post again when I'm home!!

The other day (namely yesterday) I watched John Tucker must die. I enjoyed it a lot haha!:) I like the blond ( though I forgot her name) and kate... Evil yet lovable. Though I must say I do not condone their activites in the show.

So I guess I'm partial towards blonds. Take note is not love blonds just partial towards them. Looks wise anyway. Maybe I'll dye blond! hahaz. For all my friends who are thinking "Oh no he had better not!" Don't worry I won't! Blond just isn't me.

So preparation for year end activites are kicking into full gear. In some ways I'm not really ready... Hard to get into gear... Some days I feel full of fire while others I just really want to sleep, hah! So I pray that God give me the urgency to go out with all guns blazing!!

Two days rest, now its almost time to get back to work... See ya all! Have fun wherever you may be:)

Hiyaz world... sorry this is gonna be a rushed sort of entry... judst wanted to shout out to the people who are reading this!! Thanks for coming here even though I don't really post much( Thats why I decided to rush this post)

I gotta leave for camp soon but I promise when I'm back tomolo I'll get in one post.

Take care my friends!! Hope you have a blast of a monday (even for those who are sick!!)

Boo! surprise!! How often do I leave a weekday entry?? hee:)

Sweet sweet anticipation today... I've spent a few extra days at home because of a mc and I'm beginning to hope ORD comes sooner! How sweet this feeling of spending time at home. Being able to sleep at home daily is one of the best things in the world. You'll only know when you start spending days away from home regularly. So anyways I'm thinking about that first week of civilian life after ORD and how to survive one week at home. Then I realise, its FACT camp!!

So what a sweet sweet week it will be... Youth camp rite after ORD and the drama outreach... I can already feel the euphoria rushing through my head! Its not too far away!

I still got many things to do before that. The publicity weighing heaviest on my mind at the moment... I better start putting in more effort otherwise the actual day itself will be difficult...
I've also had some good news with the publicity but I shan't mention here... hee:)

can barely wait...




sweet sweet anticipation...

Have you ever wondered if your friends consider you as much a friend as you consider them to be yours?? This question kinda floats in and out of my head from time to time. Maybe I just perceive non-existant slights and insults. Maybe I try too hard to be something that I'm not. Hahaz, I don't really know. I guess there will always be those people you thought were friends but they think of you as kinda creepy or weird. (Too quiet)

So week in and week out, I try to find those that are real. The friends who stick closer than a brother( or sister) and who's love is thicker than blood.

Sometimes I thought if I cared a little more about people or send more encouragement to them. In other words be more pro-active in the friendship. Perhaps I thought I could build it. Then I realize that sometimes its just not possible. You'll never hold any part of their hearts or their mind. Their life is already too full to accommodate you.

So the mistake I guess is with me. Imagining that everybody can be a friend. So I'm just wondering if I've judged correctly and if I've gotten the right people. Maybe I've overestimated and there are actually only 1 or 2 or even none.

I don't believe so. I hope not. Now if I can only convince myself.




A burden that is mine alone...

I can sense it... The Avalanche of work is coming... Youth camp... Drama... will make sure that the months leading to dec will be near crazy at times... And remember I haven't exactly ORD yet... Speaking of that...


ATEC IS OVER!!! hahahz ORD LORHZ!! Not trying to rub it in for those who just enlist. (My deepest apologies) But I have come so far and now here I stand at the end of two years... I have lost much and gained much in this time... God's will is still unravelling...


Back to da workload... Well... It's sweet... really I can guarantee... I'll be back at what I love... Just scared I can't complete it in time or that my comp can't handle the load... It ain't what it used to be you noe... It has really gone through many many a publicity campaign... A real stalwart... But I need more power and space now.... Otherwise this project is gonna face a problem...


Well Make sure you'll be at service to see the publicities... Won't reveal the dates so make sure you're there like EVERY WEEK... hahahz... at least try to be larh...

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Well kinda lonely cause everyone's away... the ymlc aren't online and very few others... so I'm kinda searching for chatters to chat with but then its hard to find... So if you read this add me!! MSN... as for my email... you either (1)noe (2) ask someone who does (3) or ask me(obviously)...
I'll love to add more...

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Today my senses picked up this wonderful fragrance... So 'soft' and familar... kinda reminds me of somebody... the fragrance of familiarity and comfort... Yet it wasn't where I expected it from.... Hhahaz... Mind is in a muddle... Maybe I think too much, a smile is a smile... besides I'm 20 liaoz...

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Am I mistaken or do I see it??

Her image just keeps flashing before my eyes... I see her in my sleep and in my strongest of hope... My memories play on and my heart continues to writhe in its anguish... Its painful but I'll go on



Mighty in grace and strong in love
the one who took it all
Abundant giver and lovely saviour
my helper when I call

what can take your place
who can deny your infinite worth
not one thing
In heaven or earth

Lord I cry out and you come
I whisper and you run
When the pain is too strong
You carry me on Your shoulders

You carry me, You carry me

The annual curse of the 2nd sept continues... it continues to be a bad day for me...
Had a really really bad stomach cramp! I was literally on my knees asking for God to help... Of course at the same time trying to get some milk out of the fridge... Besides that a few other reasons that kinda make this day not so good...

Previous years I guess it has generally been bad things happening around this time ( though I would like to say I am not supersitious). There might have been exceptions but.... not sure... Hopefully for her it'll be the first really happy birthday in recent years... at least she seems happy...

Sometimes I just like to be me... which happens to be quiet and not so talkative... so don't shoot me when I have those 'cave' moments...

Turmoil in my heart is killing me I guess... I don't know what I'm gonna decide on or what my thoughts are on certain things... so I don't really noe...

One thing I noe for sure... I still got a thing for her, as put in her words. Glad she knows though I wish it'll mean more to her... but I don't think so...

Hope she'll like the present anywayz...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLYN LEE PUI YEE!!

God loves and is with you ALWAYS!!

take care...

love always...




maybe my heart will come back....